Strip the colour
Let me see
In black and white
and the grey between
What do you see?
the colour is gone
But the river runs red
I am shutting it down
Turning lights off
Let the stars guide me
Let the stars hide me
As the river runs red
Trace your fingertips along my skin
Kiss me goodbye
with the going down of the sun
I am taking it with me
Washing out with the tide
And the river runs red
I took a step backwards
and found myself
on a journey of introspection
where I have lost myself again.
Where the minutes feel like years
and the colours all blend into one,
Where the thoughts in my mind
are floating away like clouds in the wind
I’m looking through the back of the mirror inside
at my outside self
which steps through the paces
and does what needs to be done
but I’m not seeing through these eyes
and I don’t want to move
I don’t what to think
I’m watching the world through someone else’s eyes.
Let the darkness envelope me
let it wrap me up and hold me close
Underneath a velvet sky.
I don’t want to speak
I can’t find the words
Let me hear instead the music play
and maybe the words will guide me
maybe they will find me
but just for now I’ll lie me down to sleep
and pray to god my soul to keep
Until the day dawns as only it must
and in the morning light
we shall see..
see if the lighthouse beckons
see if it show me the way
instead of dreaming the dream
of finding the way
beneath a velvet sky.
Where the tears I shed are not my own
where I don’t need to be samson
Where the demons can’t find me
and the angels still fear to tread
Where I can be lost
in the middle of nothing
but for the comfort of being
Who the hell do you think you are?
That you felt you could play us all like puppets?
That you could so easily deceive
And leave us in your web of lies
Was nothing real?
Was nothing true?
Was it all nothing more than a mind game or two?
Do you have any conscious for what you have done?
For what lives you played with?
What lives you screwed?
Pity for you
For what you have done
I think you have no concept of what you have done!
It was all about you
Your power plays and your ambition
You never considered the heads that you stepped on
Don’t you dare blame me for where you lay now
This is all your own doing and I wish that you cared
Wish I could curse you from the top of my lungs
But I won’t you know because the damage is done
There is nothing to be gained and your karma will come
I will protect the children both mine and hers as best as I’m able
And I will do so not the least because they are the victims of your wars.
I will pray for these children to have the grace
To find their own space
As they grow
And hope that they will forever hold each other in the hearts
Regardless of your destruction
And I will pray for these children to have love in their hearts and not walk your path
God forgive you for what you have done
For I cannot
Just right now….. I want to turn the music up so loud…
So loud I can’t hear the voices in my mind
Just right now…..I want to walk into the ocean
Walk so deep that the water covers my eyes so that I can’t see
Just right now…. I want to feel the burn
To run my fingers through the flames
Just right now… I need to breathe
swimming in opposite directions yet moving all the same
I have no set destination
no picture in my mind of where I will be
I live through the world as I see it go by
I used to believe I was purely a simple fish
however on reflection I find that nothing is further from this in truth
If you swim with me you will need to keep pace
and spin and swirl and dance about
and I’m telling you now
I have not been caught yet
nor to I intend to be
A nice dream to dream
but the tides they flow, they ebb and they rage
All in a moment then silent again
My words are just words
Sometimes yet there is a deeper truth
and perhaps that hides even from me
maybe we will all just drown at sea
Why do you make it so hard
for me to say goodbye
when you can’t give me what I need
When you know that this has to end?
Day by day
And watch as I let it drift through my fingertips
all that is diamonds and dust.
The possibility of everything
is what you’re hoping for
yet deep down you know
that you’re happy to hide in a falsehood
hoping the dream of dreams
when all the same you hear the reality
and know that the diamonds are nothing but coal
they aren’t real
and the truth is cold as steel
This is just not real
You say that i’m yours
but honey, let me tell you…
You’re grasping at straws!
I am no mans possession
Not anymore, not ever again.
I am me and I am free
Exactly the woman I choose to be.
I might share myself
for a while
but don’t mistake that for ‘to have and to hold’
The tighter you think you can reach out to catch me
the further in fact I shall diminish from your sight
I am a free weoman
I am myself
I will not be be owned